On a cold, winter night in a small Kansas town, carolers filled the living room of the 105 year old woman named Mae. Although we were only in her home for a few brief moments, it was a moment in time I won’t soon forget.
Mae sat in her easy chair with carolers all around. Sometimes she would sing the words along with us, other times she closed her eyes and listened. Either way it didn’t matter, the presence of God permeated her home and I wept as we stood there and sang. Without even realizing it, we were standing on Holy Ground.
Mae lived five more years, making her 110 years old when she went home to Jesus. The last few days I have thought a lot about this incredible woman of God. Chuck Swindoll states that:
“When you are a man or woman after God’s heart, you are deeply sensitive to spiritual things. Second Chronicles 16:9 explains it this way: “For the eyes of the LORD move to and fro throughout the earth that He may strongly support those whose heart is completely His.”
What is God looking for? He is looking for men and women whose hearts are His—completely. That means there are no locked closets. Nothing’s been swept under the rugs. That means that when you do wrong, you admit it and come to terms with it. You long to please Him in your actions. You care deeply about the motivations behind your actions. God is not looking for magnificent specimens of humanity. He’s looking for deeply spiritual, genuinely humble, honest-to-the-core servants who have integrity.”
God needed to do some pruning in my heart this past week. He showed some ugly motives behind a number of my actions. This snipping process was met with denial, turning to excuses for the behavior, then I became wrought with personal guilt and finally ended at the feet of Jesus. Shamefully, on my knees confessing the spitefulness He had already revealed. I didn’t want to be the woman he exposed; I desire to be an “honest-to-the-core servant with integrity.” This is when Mae came to mind.
Not that she had ugliness, but because Mae was the kind of woman I strive to be. She was a woman after God’s own heart. I didn’t know Mae personally, I just knew she loved her Jesus and her relationship with Him flowed out of her life and into the lives of people who came in contact with her…. Even into a group of carolers on a cold winter Kansas night, who unexpectedly came and stood on “Holy Ground.”